yet You seem to hover (schweben) and wait.
Do not leave us in our miserable condition, Papa! You only want volunteer
lovers to fill Your home. We have volunteered (freiwillig gemeldet). But, as You tarry (verweilen), the
wicked deceitfulness (Täuschung) of our hearts surface to betray our love for You once
again. We can not stay in this place oh Lord! If we stay, we sometimes slip
backwards into our longings for other passions, and places in the world
where our flesh betrays our very hearts. Do not leave us here, oh Lord! As
we slip and slide backwards, our hearts become callused (wund / mit Schwielen versehen), subtle (fein, subtil) rebellion
takes its hold and we voluntarily walk away from You, the One we have
volunteered to love above all else.
Our members are torn and weak. They are separated at the very joints and
marrow and torn asunder (entzwei). As we lay upon our beds of languishing (Sehnsucht, Schmachten), do not let
our cheeks grow dry and our hearts cold from the pain of disappointment. We
waited for our loved ones to join our passion, but the pain of delay has
even caused our own glow to dwindle (abnehmen) into mere embers (klühende Asche).
Breathe upon our separated embers and rekindle our flames into fire. Do not leave us here!
Bring us back again oh Lord, please do not leave us here.
It is true, we can not love You as You deserve. We can not serve You, even
to the best that we know how, without Your great love first loving us. We
know nothing and have nothing to offer our Great God but our miserable
selves, still waiting, still waiting, still waiting with hearts that betray
us. Do not leave us here oh Lord!
Papa, the prophets have moved on and they speak of Your great riches and
promises. How they kindle our hearts. Yet, Lord, if You move them too far
ahead, we are left alone, not knowing how to leave this place! The gap
spreads and we become more hopeless as each day passes; knowing what is
available but not knowing how to touch that which is just out of reach.
Come, oh Lord, come and do not leave us here!
You have called us a great company of passionate lovers. You have called us
up and out into a new beginning, a new day. Please let us move on and not
linger with our hearts towards Egypt. Set us free to love You, far away
from the subtle complacency that lingers. Do not leave us here, oh Lord!
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I HAVE HEARD THE CRIES OF YOUR HEARTS
My own ones, you have captured My heart with such deep longings for you!
How you minister to Me, the Great I AM Who has all, is all - and yet only
desires one thing : volunteer lovers. Even as you long for My love, I long
for yours.
You have run from the pain because you believe that you have disappointed (enttäuscht)
Me. Precious one, you have not disappointed Me, nothing could be farther
from the truth. I know the betrayal in your hearts even before you know,
dear ones. How well you understand that the answers are not within
yourselves. You have learned that all mankind has failed even in the
simplest form of commandments, which is to love. You have done well to come
back to Me and pour out this truth upon Me. I do not expect you to live
apart from leaning and clinging (festhalten an, sich schmiegen an, sich klammern an) to Me in every way. As you trade your own failure with your clinging to Me to help you, THIS IS LOVE. This is the
love that captures My heart!
It is impossible to live the consecrated life apart from Me! That life IS
ME. There is no life without clinging to Me in every little detail. As you
decrease, I increase and together we move into your promises. I will not
leave you in the despair of delay. I will not leave you at all. I have
never left you. I AM totally and eternally committed to you.
My timing is not yours, and what you see as standing still is far from the
truth. I AM moving a great mass of believers into new places. You are
caught in the dust of movement and see nothing but your own misery. As you
worship Me, the eyes of your heart will rise above the dust cloud to see
things from My point of view, and you will find hope as you see things as
they really are. The delay is over, My child, it is over.
Now lean upon My bosom (Brust) and let Me carry you so that you can rest. Your
strivings have been great and this has exhausted you. Let Me carry you. Be
still and listen to My heart beating for you; My heart is beating for you,
My love.
Jesaja 41:10 fürchte dich nicht, denn ich bin mit dir! Habe keine Angst, denn ich bin dein Gott! Ich stärke dich, ja, ich helfe dir, ja, ich halte dich mit der Rechten meiner Gerechtigkeit.
Hoheslied 4:9 Du hast mir das Herz geraubt, meine Schwester, <meine> Braut. Du hast mir das Herz geraubt mit einem einzigen <Blick> aus deinen Augen, mit einer einzigen Kette von deinem Halsschmuck. 10 Wie schön ist deine Liebe, meine Schwester, <meine> Braut! Wieviel köstlicher ist deine Liebe als Wein und der Duft deiner Salben als alle Balsamöle!